Island Fever, Where You At? Week 4+5

It is now week four and five! Wow, it's hard to believe I've
been here practically a whole month now... And what
have I got done? Jello shots, new bank, checked out
a few schools, model half nakkie for First Friday,
went out with some military wives, killed zombies
all day with my baby sister... I really need to get
on the ball though... It's so hard! I just love it
here so much, I feel relaxed. Like vacation from
reality.

Let's check out week 4 and 5, shall we?





So the other night my mom texted me (from down the hall, I
know, right?) saying she wanted ten jello shots. Curious,
I replied back asking if she could even handle any jello
shots! Those things are kind of hard to swallow... For me
anyhow. Then she admitting to never having had one, so naturally
we had to make some.

Went to the PX and naturally, had to go down the Halloween aisle!
Pffft, lexi wigs. It made me chuckle because that's one of my
nicknames. So I had to be a bit silly. And then I saw this AMAZING
candelabra that was all gothic-y and SPARKLY. omgwtf. It was pretty
rad. And cheaply made. Probably would have fallen apart if I so much
as looked at it wrong. Either way, it caught my fancy. I wanted it
for my non-existent desk! Ooohh yeaaah baby. Haha. Anyways.
We got some apple flavored vodka, UV! haha, nasty. And some skull
rubber ice tray. This proofed to be successful to a certain degree;
as in, it fit in the fridge and is easy to clean. But if you
want your jello shot to look...um... pretty... I do not really
suggest rubber to hold it. And yes, I am a messy pourer! Cooking
is not my first calling, that's for sure. Even when it's just jello.





My family wanted to help me get prepared for Halloween this year,
so they took me to the beach even though all of them were tired
from work or school or just tooth pains.  But that was about as far
as the help went.  First things first, though.  My jello shots!

I worked really hard making these jello shots for my mom and her
tooth ache. (Not really, the fridge did the most work. I just mixed
the stuff together and poured.)  And come to find, she tells me she
looked at them and then wished she had regular jello instead! Rude!
So we never did end up eating them that night, but that next morning
well... afternoon, we had a little.  Well.  She had a little.  I had one
skull and um... half of that bowl.  All before the beach, too.  Let's just
say... THEY WERE AMAZING.  Maybe I'm a little slow on the
college kid partying technique, but hey, I have a very good reason.
My best friend made some once and they were very intimidating and
quite honestly, looked disgusting!  Not the case with mine!  Mine looked
beautiful, to say the least.  Strawberry jello with apple UV.  Haha, oh
UV vodka... So cheap... so nasty...  My mommy doesn't like to be
in videos, however.  So... You got to stare at the pretty jello for about
a whole minute.  Haha.

I don't remember the name of this beach... Actually, I never was told it
nor seen a sign for it.  I just know it's 'down the street' from Schofield.
There's two turns, left one to the beach, and the right one to Hale'iwa
(where the Killer Tacos resides!).  So, yeah... Speaking of which. I
really wanted Killer Tacos... but like I suspected my family just stared
at me like I was retarded.  I TOLD YOU I WAS THE ONLY ONE
WHO LIKED IT.  Sigh.  Anyhow, we went to the beach and the waves
were ruling today. Like pretty crazy for it only being afternoon... They're
a lot fuller looking in person. So was that airplane that was quite seriously
over our heads. Right before the beach we stopped at is a place popular
for wind surfing.

We made camp on a little sand dune. Haha, and my step-dad got soaked super
bad because we told him that the waves would come up that close. Did he
listen? Nope, nope. It was pretty funny to see him jump up like he was on
fire or something. They all went in the water, but I was just wearing my
string bikini bottoms... The waves... yeah, they would have stole those
off of me instantly. : P And we didn't want that now did we? They sure
did not swim for very long however. My mom freaked the eff out and swore
she saw a sting ray swimming around in the waves. Kaydance thought it was
a flower (I could see it from where I was, it would have been a big ass
flower) and dad said possibly some sort of fish. But honestly now, what
sort of sea creature let's the waves toss it around like that? I still
think it was just a big piece of bark or whatever. Could have been a
dead sting ray, I guess. But I always heard they lived in shallow,
calm areas. With lots of rocks to hide under. Sting rays are anti-social
I'm pretty sure... Or was it social... I think bat rays are social...
Hence why you can pet them at Seaworld... Wait... I'm getting all
sorts of confused on my sea life now. -__-'

So when they finally came back because mom had ruined their swim
time, I thought it'd be a good time to recruit my sister to help me
find some shells! No, instead she ran up and down the beach, without
me, and tripped and ate sand. Then came back over and fell asleep.
Needless to say, I went and wandered on my own. Found a lot of little
shells, mostly unacceptable ones to me. (meaning they weren't 'pretty'
enough to grace my body for Halloween). It was actually nice to just
walk along the edge of sand and wave, inspecting the ground casually.
And I did have good luck finding one really unique-ish one. That I
joked around about putting on my belly button. Hahaha.

Then we went to Wahiawa and picked up my sister, had dinner, and yep.
Family time. Been there, done that! Bam.




Headhunterz! Aaaahh, so amazing! What an amazing day,
not to mention. Met up with my new fwiend, Jim! And
we went to my favorite beach so far, but a bit father than
the fam has taken me. There's some awesome cove action
going on in that spot. With crevices to hide in, and crabs
crawling everywhere, scuttling to hide from the human eye.
Also signs of beach bonfire. It was really cool to say the
absolute LEAST of it. I don't think I could even begin to
fully describe it's full awesomeness for you all to picture.
You will just have to come and see it for yourself. The sunset
is always pretty nice... Though it doesn't get very 'pink' ish
I've noticed. Maybe because the sun just disappears on the ocean,
where as in Tahoe it hid behind some mountains and cast beautiful
shadows and lights all over the place. Still gorgeous here,
though. And like I said before, rainbows galore! If you are
obsessed with rainbows, like DOUBLE RAINBOW GUY obsessed,
you'll absolutely love visiting or moving here. Rainbow
here, rainbow there, rainbow everywhere, every day.

So getting to know my new friend is pretty rad. It's always
exciting to hear where people are from, how they grew up,
what sort of music they like. I guess you could say I'm like
one of those 'friend collecters' on Facebook. You know, those
people who add you just because you liked the same page as them
or have one friend in common (who you don't even know that way
to begin with). The only difference is, I actually get to know
these people and am doing it in real life! Face to face, for real.
Anyways. So Jim likes a lot of good music, well, in my opinion.
:] So I stoked to hear he liked not only hardstyle, but also
Headhunterz! And it just so happened that Heady was playing
that night. Who would miss a chance to go see that?! We didn't!

We almost did though. Because we took Jim's friend Hess along
and he wanted to go to Senor Frog's. That strange, crazy bar
restaurant military hangout in Waikiki that the ladies had taken
me to last week. And you can't just leave a bro to fend for himself,
I guess. So we walked the like mile from the parking to the bar
only to find out the bouncer was someone new and wouldn't let Hess
in. Grudgingly, he came along with Jim and I on our little adventure.
And what an adventure it ended up being. For some reason, I was given
the task of directions to this club in Honolulu. YEAH RIGHT SMART MOVE.
I'm called a cupcake head for a reason! And it's not my hair lately.
So, we got incredibly lost. However in my defense, my little dot on
Google Maps was not working right. Sometimes we would be at a complete
stand still and the dot would wig out and move EVERYWHERE on the screen.
See? Not completely my fault. Though this hiccup in directions kind
of helped put the three of us in a better mood after the whole Senor
Frog's let down. And by time we got to the Soho Mixed Media Bar in
downtown (RIGHT DOWN THE STREET FROM MY FUTURE SCHOOL, so stupid me)
we were all super stoked and talkative. Hahaha, such a girl thing
for me to think. Not to mention, we missed pretty much all the other
sets. So it was pure Headhunterz that night. Freaking sweaty, humid
and sticky club for real. Only the best. Danced until my body hurt!
And man did it hurt the next day. So bummed my iphone is shotty when
 it comes to amazing bass. It shut down the sound for half a
clip just because it is not of the hard with style type of phone.

 Epic fail, iPhone, epic fail.




Saturday... I spent a bit of time with mom, especially while she was
cooking. She mentioned something that kind of broke my heart. :/
Just a tiny bit. She said, "Before you came here, the rest of the
family kind of ignored me, but I still had to cook for everyone and
what not." I don't think she meant any sort of way. She was just
talking about how she cooked before I got here and then this whole month
because of her tooth, she hasn't been cooking very much. I love my
mama so I sat in the kitchen and watched her cook, talking to her
about things here and there. Just small, meaningless chit-chat.
But it was our meaningless chit-chat and sometimes that's all
you need to show you care about that person. To just devote a little
bit of listening time. I know in the past I've made mistakes of
not really listening, or being distracted. I still do it, even to
my mom. I can honestly say though, I have been trying to break
this habit. My mom is the first step. Anyways, she made chicken
tacos. <3 I love her chicken. It's probably why chicken is my preferred meat.

What was I saying? Oh! Okay. Mark and I went to Targe't...
And it felt like home. Because everything EVERYTHING was exactly
where I had left it, in Nevada! The only difference is, that
little 'dollar items' in-let thing they have when you first walk
in? Yeah, here? It's "Hawaii Items" in-let instead. A little
touristism inside of me kind of eye balled it. But I was more just
curious what sort of tourist things they had. And if they had a big
ole bag of sea shells I could use for my costume. Nah. Just silly
things you could buy ANYWHERE, with the generic 'Hawaii!' and then
'Made in China' sticker on the bottom. Though, I did like some of
the car decals... Pretty turtles in red. <3 Red is my favorite.

The Halloween aisle is always my favorite. It's even so more
entertaining than Christmas aisle or 'as seen on TV' aisle.
I absolutely love Halloween. I love when they come out with
all of the creepy, dark stuff. Especially the gothic-esque decor.
Like that SUPERB candelabra. (I think candelabras are my new obsession).
T__T Why does it have to be fifteen dollars, though! That's just
ridiculous for ONE candelabra! Give me two and perhaps we have a
deal. Either way... I'm still thinking about how amazing it was...
and might even go back for it... Oh! And how about those adorable
peppermint Christmas lights I found? I think I want those, too.
For when I build up my vanity. It matches with my red, pink, and
black theme anyhow. Afterwords, I convinced dad to go to Petco.

Pets always cheer me up. Even in my darkest of days... a cute little
puppy face can instantly make me feel better. And lately, I have
been missing the life out of my little guy back home. :/ Life is
so weird without my mini-dachshund. All I have is Kaydance to take
for walks! And she talks! Rude! (JK, I lub yew Kay). So, pet
stores are a special treat to my heart-light. ♥ This Petco
was a bit different from mine at home. It didn't have nearly as
many pets. However, the ones they did have were simply adorable.
Even the kitties. Which is saying a lot because I rather dislike
cats. That particular one was so playful! Trying to just get me
to love him and set him free... Trust me, I wanted to. I wanted to
let them all out and roam freeeeee! Be free kitties, be free! But
that is silly. Hawaii is secretly over ran with kitties. In fact,
I'm pretty sure there is a kitty-mob here. The cats control the crazy
coke heads, making these coke heads talk to themselves. AND THEN TRY TO
TALK TO ME! Oh no, evil kitties.

... I am thinking I should stop blogging late at night. What do you think?




So we went to Waimae Valley/falls only to find it was pretty much
closing for the evening. It was still really beautiful in there.
And conveniently, there is no cell phone service! Enjoy the falls
in peace without the stress of the outside world following you. I
can think of one person in particular I might drag there JUST because
of the lack of cell phone service. ;) Evil much? Yes, yes I am. Anyways,
due to the lack of cellphone service, I momentarily got separated and
lost from my family in the gift shop. One second I was looking at
touristy things and talking to my mom and sister, the next they all
disappeared! And it wasn't a very big store, either! So, I roamed
around outside, looking all over for them! Turned out they ditched
me and went to the bathroom. -__-

Then we went to one of my step-dad's favorite beaches (at least I
assume it is because he's taken us there a few times now) Sunset
Beach over on the North-ish side. I don't really know. That whole
N,E,S,W always confuses me. I just have an eternal compass that
tells me which way the desired place is. Kind of like Captain Jack's
compass. Except... you know, inside. Somehow Kaydance came up with
the math problem that if I was minus 25 years, I'd be her baby in
forty years. It made sense to her... I guess.




30 Seconds to Mars came to Hawaii! And an amazing show it was!
Originally I was suppose to go with Venice, but strep throat
canceled all of her plans. And conveniently enough it just so
happened to be my baby sister's birthday. So the beautiful, newly
fifteen year old accompanied me to my first rock show of many to come
in Honolulu!

The venue was the water front at Aloha Towers. What an amazing view
at sunset, too! Simply breath taking. Oh, hahaha! We had such a
crazy adventure on the bus ride there! First, I got a rip in my
tights sitting on the bench. What a dumb idea that was, now that I
honestly think about it. Ugh. However, I was going to a rock show...
and what doesn't scream 90's grunge and rock than rebellious holes in
your clothes? Kaydance and I worked a little on giving the rest of my
tights some holes in order to give it a rocker vibe. And look more
intentional I suppose. He, he, he.

The first band to go on was a local band called Braxton, I think. That
or the singer's name was Braxton. It was kind of hard to understand the
announcer. Either way... We didn't quite like that first band too much.
The music would sound good, well put together and harmonized. But then
the singing would be off, almost completely a different beat. Or vice
versa. Oh well. It was still cool that 30 Seconds to Mars got some
locals to open up. The crowd was super dead, but that happens a lot
in the beginning of a concert. At least that was what I reasoned with
myself.

LET ME TAKE A TIME OUT FANGIRL MOMENT THOUGH, PLZ.

During this first band's set, I could not help but look around at the beauty
of Aloha Towers. The clock tower is superb, I love it's classic but still
and forever modern design. And the area was actually a shopping center, so
strange when you think about it. And normal venues have hot dog stands
and pretzel stalls galore. Not Aloha Tower. This one had SUSHI! Delicious
smelling sushi! The only down side? Cash. Only. Fsckers!
However awesome that is, that is not the reason I pulled you all aside for
a fangirl moment. No, the reason is; Tomo (of 30 Seconds to Mars) just so
happened to be RIGHT BEHIND ME during the opening act. I instantly knew it
was him! How could I not know it was my beloved Tomo?

Long hair? Check.
Crazy mofo beard? Check.
Amazing bass and guitar player? Check check!

It was definitely my Tomo! And the only thing standing in the way of our
destiny to be together was... a big ass concrete barrier and a nosy security
guard who kept conveniently getting in the line of my creepy stalker photo
of him! RUDE RUDE RUDE! Tomo was literately RIGHT THERE! Needless to say,
I was definitely having a field day. And no one else even noticed! No one
even noticed my Tomo just standing there, chit chatting about life with some
special VIP/Golden Ticket people. Nope. Thus making them unworthy of Tomo.
I noticed.

Okay, back to the show. Next was the two Carah and Jeremy (I think) from
Shiny Toy Guns. It was kind of strange to have only some of them... Like
what was the point? Haha. Oh well. She was pretty cute up close, but
I like my Skrillex-do on... well... Skrillex. On chicks, it just reminds
me of lesbians. Long story involving actual lesbians and this crazed
shaved side of the head thing. Like really? Why? I don't know. But I
don't judge. Anyways! Jeremy was amazing mixing. It was so smooth and
interesting to listen to. But when Carah came out and sang... Meh. Her
voice is amazing, too, just like his mixing. But without the rest of the
band, their combination together did not sit well. At least not with me.
It didn't compliment each other. Her vocals were way louder than his mixing
when really they should have been only a tiny bit higher. However, I was
totally digging the new song 'Speaking Japanese' from them. It's got that
boom boom. ; )

AND WHO COULD NOT LOVE 30 SECONDS TO MARS' SET? It was amazing. Even
if Jared ended up doing half the songs acoustically and by himself. I
guess the boys just really couldn't shake what ever bug they got on tour.
Which is why if you plan on traveling, time to boost up the vitamins and
booster shots, kids. Anyways. I think my favorite part had to be when
they did a cover of one of my favorite band's songs; U2's "Where The Streets
Have No Name". It was ... omg amazing. The crowd was still insanely dead.
Like Hawaii didn't know what movement actually was. And practically
no one knew the words. Really, guys? Embarrassing. They finished the
night with a strange encore of one of their roadie's playing with his band
a popular Foo Fighter's song. And then they finished with a song of their own.
Needless to say, good show. And as we waited for our ride to come get us
we got mauled by probably buzzing on booze AND the glory of being touched
by a Leto. Haha, I'm just so glad I had the camera on right at that second. Memories. ♥




This day we went to the Pearlridge mall. By time I took this first
footage, of the really cool furniture store, we were both exhausted
from not only mall-crawling, but from the heat. It was definitely
one of the hotter days that day. And we took the convertible.

Actually, I don't think there is much to say... Except this is
actually two days put into one. The mall and Domo-getting is one
day and then me singing Michael Jackson to Kaydance was the next.
: P sue me.




50/50

Lately I have been... Kind of in a really tough spot. A spot that
I have been in before and not known what to do, but couldn't do
anything, and wasn't very experienced in the outside/grown up world.
Now I am in this same spot and STILL do not know what to do, can't
do anything about it to help fix it, but am seeing it with new eyes.

That being said...
Doesn't make it one bit easier.

Let's just get this much out; I love my family a lot and have always
been very involved in their lives. I feel more connected to them
than average families, at least in my humble opinion. So when...
See? This sort of situation we are going through is very upsetting
and frustrating. And it's just so perfectly intense. I thought I moved
here to be emotionally supported by my family while I finished up
school and started to figure me out. Well, it feels like
the tables have definitely turned. And I feel like that helpless
little kid again who is taking on the world as her own personal
burden. I know, I know. I know it is not my responsibility or that
I should really just focus on my own thing. But family is my own
thing. If you want to marry me, you marry my whole family. You
have to get along with all them in order to get along with me. Their
pain... it's my pain.

So, today was a break down and get the worst thing I could ever get
myself day. It was a double chocolatey chip frappuccino with a pump
of peppermint for the radical price of five bucks from a Starbucks in
Mililani while my family got Kaydance a new phone for her birthday.
If you guys know anything about me, I only have a weakness for that
chocolate, non-coffee frap, and their passion tea lemonades. Those
are the only two I crave almost on a weekly schedule. And since I moved
to Hawaii, I have actually been Starbucks clean. Yup, I have been
keeping myself in strict order and not gotten a single sip of Starbucks.
Almost two whole months clean, folks. It was a tough battle...
And today I lost. And what a sweet loser-run it was.

Kaydance was finally pleased, having a new phone that didn't squeal
every time she texted and it's a lower end Android nonetheless, as
well as Venice actually getting an iPhone as a late birthday present
from the parents. All in all, it was a good day to be my little sisters.
And somewhat me, if you count the frap as good as a new phone. Though
I wish mine had been purchased as a gift for my birthday, rather than
because I was feeling particularly unhappy enough to want to indulge
in my need for not only Starbucks, but chocolate as well. So... yes?
It was a good day?

*shrug*

Next, we finally got to see the only movie I have been interested in seeing.
50/50 with the amazing Joseph Gordan Levitt and Seth Rogen. The story, in
a short non-plot-revealing summary, is about a man who finds out he has
cancer. In his spine. Painful, no? And about how it effects the people
around him, somewhat. I guess you could say it's about how it effects
the people around him from HIS POINT OF VIEW. I highly recommend it, just
bring some tissues or be a really disconnected person. Anyways. Through out the
movie I couldn't help but remember my friend Cameron Hardy, who had only just
passed away from that skanky bitch cancer back in February. It had come
as a really big, horrible shock to me. I spent the better part of the whole
day crying my eyes out. No matter what anyone said, I could not be comforted.
I was grieving. Grieving for my friend who was only 22, grieving because he
hadn't even begun his life yet, grieving because I had never made that
extra effort to see him again. Even after I had found out he had had cancer
four years prior to his passing. Our non-existent friendship was not our
own choice, as kids. But as adults, I wish I could have at least seen him
just once again. But I let myself down...

Situations with my dad, my real dad that is, have led me to life saying
"Don't regret the past, because you can't change it." And I had never
really looked back, but only because it was too painful. When Cameron
died, and that still hurts my heart to even just type, I began to live
my saying. Knowing fully well that from that day on, the only true
regret I would ever allow myself to harbor was not getting to see him
again. No matter what happened in the past, or what was going on in the
present, I would not let them become something I regretted. They would be
things I had experienced, things I could learn from and possibly use in
the future when others might be going through the same thing. I would
look back on them and instead of feeling utter despair and regret, I
would just accept them as they were. Those things that might have seemed
really bad at the time, or traumatizing, suddenly weren't. I wouldn't
allow them to be. They weren't who I was or what I was about. Some of
them may have helped shaped me into who I am now, but only for the better.

My future is my own to do what I please with, and every step I take, I
take knowing it was the one I chose and I would not look back to regret.

Live for your future, and don't regret your past~

alexis♥

ps.

Not regretting is one thing.

But apologizing to people you may have hurt is completely different.

Is there someone you should reach out to today?